Have you ever…

Gone thru someone’s photos on facebook and begun to feel sad because their life is the one you always dreamed of? I have to avoid looking at some of my friends and family’s photos because it begins to hurt so much; it’s not jealousy of their lives but, rather an ache of everything I know I’m missing…The images show the way I want my family and friends to be like around me; now, I know that pictures don’t show what it’s like to live with someone everyday, but as for the people I do know personally… Their lives really are the way they seem in pictures; it saddens me because, I will never know what it’s like for a family to WANT to spend time together.  

Mine? We go to great lengths sometimes, simply to avoid one another… Sad isn’t it?  And at this point, my biggest goal is to find two more jobs so that I can move out and away and never look back…

I love my mom, but, I’m just done with all of them. To much pain, hurt, angry words, threats, hatefulness, has been thrown my way all too often… I need to move on.

And as for my extended family, they barely take the time out of their day to acknowledge us way out here; they’re all in the bay area and have relationships/friendships with one another… 

At least I have Taya…

I just wish it felt like enough…

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